Moments…defining moments…trying to recall my earliest one, but it’s a little hazy. And when I ask about defining moments, it seems we’re all drawn to happy, funny or celebratory times: epic engagements, our first car or house purchase, that time when we…you know (insert personal/hilarious/embarrassing moment)!
Today, I’m thinking more along the lines of the journey from something that seemed crushing and unnecessary to proving Divine, fruitful and definitely more beneficial than imagined.
Have you experienced the heart-wrenching pain of rejection? From a friend, a lover, a family member, a friend that was “like” family or fill in the blank…
Have you experienced the shock of what you believed was true shattering as you watched…unable to move or turning away but at every turn, the same scene continues playing? Have you struggled to reconcile the words coming at you with what you were so sure you knew?
I believe we have all experienced it in some form or fashion. I am experiencing it now. And while I’m crying multiple times a day, I am also processing with my cat and a few kind humans who continue to create and maintain a safe space for me.
I AM genuinely grieving the decisions of some others who have deeply wounded my heart. I AM letting all the feelings, thoughts, dreams, visions and nightmares come to the surface. It is painful. At times, it feels overwhelming, suffocating and much too much for my heart. I will myself to breathe…and…breathe in deep.
I repeatedly breathe in the good and exhale the negative. I continue to remind myself of the importance of taking care of my heart…facing and slaying lies, clinging to the Truth and extending grace, especially to myself, even when others are withholding it.
I was raised to give grace to others, but for just a few years now, I’ve been learning and practicing extending grace to myself.
I know what I want and wish for now, but I choose to pray solely for strength and wisdom in this current place (for all parties). I cannot claim to know all the reasons and ways of the Divine. I wholeheartedly believe that each of us are so loved and always have the opportunity to choose our own path.
Unexpected and unwanted things occur on all of our paths, at times, but we can choose how we respond and we can choose to change course. I say this often, to myself and others, the beauty of love is choice (the opposite is slavery).
Unfailing Love, Ultimate Light, Abba, Yesú, the Divine sometimes moves in mysterious ways. In this defining moment, through tears, I choose surrender. I choose trust. I choose to be still because regardless of the pain of today and the unknown of tomorrow, I AM safe in the eternal hug of the Divine.
I AM free to be me. I AM loved forever. I AM perfectly understood and fully accepted. And so are YOU, dear heart. You are fill in the Truth you need for this moment. Say it out loud (and as loud!) as YoU need. Say it as often as YoU need. Write it out where you can see it and be reminded to carry only the Truth.
We journey together – maybe at varying points on the path; nonetheless, together. Soak in the comfort of togetherness, solidarity and the strength gained from knowing that although we may feel alone, we are never abandoned, forgotten or alone.
Common Day Hero: Courage, grace and tenacity are what I’ve seen in you. Complete healing, wisdom and peace on your journey. “Snoopy” ~ I dedicate this post to you!
