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October 29, 2021

it’s alright

Have you ever found yourself in a familiar, yet somehow unfamiliar place? I can’t quite find the words to accurately  describe the feeling.

Fear had crept up and I wasn’t even aware that it was lingering…in the background, affecting my decision-making because yet again, it had cloaked itself as “what’s appropriate for a woman” and “your culture”…sigh.

The kindness of a friend brought realization to me -suddenly, in the middle of the conversation, it was crystal clear that I’d been hiding behind fear in just one area.

It’s alright…no need to panic upon noticing that fear is present. I took a deep breath and began walking myself through the Truth.

Truth: I hadn’t noticed or acknowledged the fear that had hidden itself in the name of “sound/good”. I AM moving forward in so many areas of my life…living fully from the heart and experiencing what it means to be set FREE indeed! Now that the fear is exposed, I can face it.

Friend, is there any area (even the smallest nook) where fear has taken residence? Hold it up to the Light…let the Truth wash over it and allow yourself the freedom to name the fear.

It is alright that fear is present. However, we need not let it rule us, so when it comes, simply hold it up to the Light.

Be still.

Whisper Truth.

Sometimes we just don’t have the energy or strength for affirmations. In those moments, maybe “what if” questions will help us turn towards the Light.

Ask yourself what if, the Truth is that I need not hide behind this anymore? What if I AM strong enough? What if I already have everything I need…here, within me? What if I AM loved so fiercely by Heaven? What if I AM never alone?

What if I WILL live (fully…thrive) and continue to see the goodness of The Divine in the land of the living? Verse thirteen from Chapter twenty-seven in the Book of Psalm, in the Holy Bible is the origin of that one. The verse says, I would have lost heart (!) unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living!

That verse has carried and continues to carry me…it has been a part of the strong, muscular arms that enveloped me, firmly held me and reassured me in a most comforting way since July 2020…there are days, I raise a fist in the air and declare it with all my strength. Other days, I Whisper it as a cry to the Heavens, but every time, I feel its Power!

Sharing the Power and Strength of it all with you ~ fear may visit, but it will not take residence here (raising a fist alongside you…declaring an affirmation with you and answering the empowering questions for you -when you need!).

Common Day Hero: I felt your tiny hand on me in the middle of a prayer and immediately said, Yeshu, I receive. A few minutes later, you came back and placed your hand on me again and I said, I receive a double portion! SO grateful that The Divine is Limitless…your innocence and the Shakti of your grandmother bring the gift of HOPE (Heavenly Oxygen Permeating Earth) and legacy. With arms raised and my face to the Heavens, I remember the moment now and offer gratitude and praise, again. Jade Wynter, you are a giant in the Kingdom. Today, I dedicate this post to you.

October 22, 2021

toxic

Have you ever found yourself in a toxic environment? Did it seem like being in a dark room for a long time and then suddenly the curtains were opened or a wall was knocked out, unexpectedly?

I know it’s different for each of us…when light comes in and we start seeing what we didn’t even know was present, but hidden or masked/disguised.

In the beginning, when toxicity is new whether it’s gaslighting, manipulation, verbal, mental, emotional, physical control and/or so much more, it may seem exciting…especially when dysfunction is all we’ve experienced or seen.

We may feel a rush of excitement; however slight or momentary…we may accept that this rush is fundamental to relationships. We may squash ourselves (turtle behavior) or over-exert ourselves (tiger behavior) to be seen/heard.

We may also vacillate between the two behaviors depending on the environment.

A friend and I were talking recently about relationships and she said, at this point, she would rather live fully in the space in-between silence and screaming. I could relate.

When I didn’t hold value and love for myself, I found myself longing and desperately looking for approval, affirmation and affection in relationships that were never truly for me.

Once I embraced myself fully in Love and Light from The Divine, I no longer needed human approval, affirmation or  affection because I began walking in the Truth that Heaven has me. I AM free!

Everything YOU need is already within you because Truth empowers, heals, brings freedom and liberty.

Toxic no longer equals excitement once we commit to heal.

Give yourself the space you need. Step back and see more clearly the spaces you occupy by choice ~ are they Truth-filled spaces of Love and Light? If not, are you ready to step out and away from all the toxicity (regardless of how long an individual or org has been in your life?).

Courage to you dear Warrior, may you choose your own health (emotional, mental, spiritual, physical) over length of relationships/ties.

Freedom, Fortitude and Foresight to you on the journey.

Common Day Hero: You are so intelligent, eloquent and kind. Many have been (and are) changed for the better because of your commitment to excellence in service; I’m among those. Today, I dedicate this post to you, DanaB.

October 15, 2021

trauma

“We can only heal what we feel” is something I began saying (and accepting) a few years ago now. I believe Thelma Box and Dr. Phil say something similar. May not be the exact quote, but what comes to mind is “You cannot change what you do not acknowledge.”

Sometimes we don’t even realize we are carrying weight…

Sometimes our trauma is buried so deep…and we don’t want to look into exactly how deep…

Sometimes we’re so exhausted because we started the process and it is just TOO much…

Sometimes we isolate thinking that no one can relate…

Sometimes we don’t know that trauma is what it’s called!

Always –

It is well.

We are alright to not be alright.

We can take as much time as we need…Healing isn’t formulaic. 

We can process in the ways that best resonate with our hearts.

We can lean into the sadness, the pain, the anger, the weight…all of it…

We can lean back onto the support systems (personal/professional) around us.

Trauma care/help is crucial…The Divine walks alongside us through it.

How can we take just one step in the direction of facing/healing trauma today?

Common Day Hero: You are seen by The Divine, even on the days when it seems you’re all alone and invisible.  Heaven is proud of you -all day, eryday…in all the moments. Warrior Deacon, I dedicate this post to you.

October 8, 2021

convenience

This week when I was paying for something with a credit card, a convenience fee popped up (my first thought was…the cashier didn’t tell me there would be a fee). I’d prefer knowing that up front.

Later that day, I wanted to get fuel for my ride (I had enough, but don’t like hitting one-fourth…just to be safe!). I stopped at a gas station and filled up.

Not even seven minutes later, while at a stop light, I saw another gas station with fuel prices ten cents less than what I had just paid! This one wasn’t next to the highway though like the one where I’d filled up – ah, convenience fee!

I started thinking, how many decisions per day are we making based on convenience? Do we make most (or all) of our decisions solely from a place of convenience? If so, how has that played out, long term?

Does it matter if the decisions are “major” or not when thinking through convenience/s?

Does it help to first make a pros/cons list, meditate, pray, speak to a few wise ones we know, seek professional guidance? What is convenience costing us (financially, spiritually, emotionally, mentally, physically)?

Common Day Hero: You were kind and loving during a time when I felt so unseen. I can’t begin to express my gratitude. Want you to know that your love touched/touches many. Earnestine, I dedicate this post to you.

October 1, 2021

courage

My experience has been that courage doesn’t render anxiety, nervousness or fear null and void.

My apologies, I don’t know the true origin, but Nelson Mandela (and a few others) are credited with saying, “Courage is not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it.”

Courage is simply honoring the decision to walk despite the internal or external trembling/shaking.

Courage is repeatedly rising up despite the tripping/falling down regardless of the number of times…just, regardless.

More and more, it seems our circles (family, school, religious, work, affiliates/organizations etc) ask that we conform to what has been decided is “acceptable”.

I’m practicing and encouraging my children to practice living by this phrase:

“Courage over conformity”

So, I ask the same of you my fellow human/traveler/warrior – choose courage.

If something keeps coming to your heart…even if it’s different, even if it’s something you haven’t seen around you, even if it’s unfamiliar…courage to you.

Common Day Hero: PrabhaChechi, I’m so happy to receive your phone calls and messages. When crisis hit, your love became such an encouragement and strength. I AM grateful beyond words. Today, I dedicate this post to you.

September 24, 2021

fourteen

This week, my eldest turned FOURteen!

And despite da Vid, we celebrated it up…the day was ranked a 10/10!

Grateful for life, for the gift of celebrating another birthday, for good health and new beginnings!

This week, I’ve been thinking about a few of the simple delights children bring:

loads of laughter

all levels of silliness

kindness

faith (my kids’ prayers are comforting/healing)

Naming simple delights, doubles the joy and on difficult days, brings relief/comfort to me.

Who/what are some simple delights currently in your life?

Common Day Hero: Jillian, Mathew, Lea, Ty ~ you bring such joy to our lives. Grateful for your squeals of delight, all the laughs and those hugs. Praising The Divine for each of you and dedicating this post to you, with so much love.

 

September 17, 2021

vaccine

DaCovid and DeVyress hit our family and I realized (again) how much I’m grateful for and how much I don’t even think about on a daily basis. Like what, ya say?

Just getting out of bed! Going to the mail box! Going to the store. Enjoying nature. Spending time with loved ones.

Speaking of da Vid…I wish we could be kind to one another in this. As an empath, I’m feeling it all and it is so…heavy.

Vaccine or no vaccine – let love lead us all.

A childhood verse came to mind; Verse Fourteen of Chapter Three in the Book of Colossians (The Bible) states: “And above all these, put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony”.

Such a fitting verse…for many occasions, but it kept coming up for me, now.

May we choose to clothe ourselves with love, even when we don’t understand or agree…for that, my fellow human and friend, is a true sign of love.

What is one way you can show love this week…especially to those whom you disagree with and/or don’t understand?

Common Day Hero: You’re a natural leader; gifted with many talents and skills. People gravitate towards you because you have a genuine/rare quality of placing all who are around you, at ease. May you extend to your own heart the grace you so easily extend to others. You are loved so deeply. Today, I dedicate this post to you, dear Niel.

September 10, 2021

23

Psalm 23 is a childhood favorite of mine. A reminder that I’m never alone; I’m provided for and taken care of…always. It comes to mind occasionally and this week, it kept coming up for me, so here ’tis for all.

The Lord is My Shepherd; I shall not want.

He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters.

He restores my soul. He leads me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for You are with me. Your rod and Your staff they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil. My cup runs over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Psalm 23 continues to be a prayer, a meditative piece and a source of reassurance for me.

I believe these words carry so much value for me because they speak comfort, peace, protection, favor and healing.

Which Scriptures, songs, poems bring you comfort and encouragement?

May I suggest that we meditate on one daily and memorize one a week?

Common Day Hero: Your devotion to the “least of these” is inspiring. Your heart for equality and equity for all is such a gift. I look forward to seeing and hugging you again…air hugs for now and I dedicate this post to you, SusannaT.

September 3, 2021

CurryCountryGirl

Have you ever had a dream that you let fade away…a dream that you let wither and die? Maybe because the opinions of others carried more weight (in your mind) than your own…maybe family obligations took priority…maybe further education…work…or a plethora of other reasons?

Death is not final because The Divine can resurrect anyone/anything -anywhere/anytime if it’s meant to be!

I think most of us are thrilled to hear resurrection stories, but we ain’t tryna hear nothin’ about death…which must occur for there to be a resurrection! Are you ready to believe again? To make room for resurrection or a new birth?

I thought my personal dream of singing country music with a curry kick was long gone. So much life kept happening and I allowed my heart to be ignored, trampled on, dismissed…by myself…and others.

A few years ago, I began letting my heart breathe again. I decided that regardless of what happens externally, I would prioritize my heart. SO grateful that I made that choice…it is why I’m here today!

I decided to pursue my dreams and enjoy the process!

So…I started writing again last year (thoughts, prayers, songs). I started this blog in 20twenty.

This spring, I began proactively working on changing the color of my urine to a “healthier” one…consistently!

And the dream…that one that I allowed to be resurrected…I’m singing again, for the love of it! I went to the studio to record! I started a “professional” instagram account and I had my first photo session for my music this week!

I AM CurryCountryGirl (to see what’s poppin’ ~ follow me on instagram @currycountrygirl).

Which dreams do YOU want to resurrect (or allow to be resurrected) this week?

What’s one step you can take towards breathing life into your dreams again?

Everything you need is within you. Give it your all…YOU got this and The Divine has you!

Common Day Hero: On our first conversation via tele (when I was not at my best), you were kind and gentle. Upon meeting in person, it was immediately evident that you embody the Light and Love of Heaven. Delighted that we are becoming better acquainted. LaurenM, I dedicate this post to you.

August 27, 2021

women

Every one has a story to tell…this week, I’m remembering the empowering stories of just a few of the women in the Holy Bible. Following is a list of sorts –

From Sarah, we learn that age ain’t nothiN but a number – the Divine shines in what humans deem “impossible”.

Hagar shows us that the Divine always sees us (Hagar called the Divine, El-Roi, the One who sees…to see is to know and to know is to feel – the Divine sees/knows/feels it all with us).

Rahab is a reminder that the Divine loves us ALL…equally and has no favorites because each of us are favored!

Hannah shows us that the Divine answers prayers.

Ruth teaches us that the Divine is our Kinsman Redeemer and has Final Say!

Jael (Yaa-el) shows us that the Divine doesn’t discriminate…in any way.

Esther tells us the Divine can turn the heart of the King/Queen/dignitaries -through you…and me. We are Powerful and even more so, when Led by the Ultimately Powerful and Gentle One!

Elizabeth reminds us that we will give birth to Greatness beyond our imagination…whether that’s through childbirth, business, mentoring, empowering/nurturing others…we, as women, birth empires, after-all!

Mother Mary shows us the Divine will surprise, care for and protect us…even in the most interesting circumstances!

The “unnamed woman” with a blood disorder is a testament that the Divine is Our Great Physician and Healer.

Mary and Martha tell us that Resurrection happens!

Women – our faith, our choice to love ourselves first/well, our pursuit of our dreams are ever telling a story – one of tenacity, stamina, Wisdom, fierce loyalty and sisterhood.

Fellow Sister Warrior, I AM here, beside you, for you, warring alongside you, sitting in the shit with you and always available to hear your story!

Common Day Hero: The seemingly permanent has suddenly turned temporary (more times that you’d probably care to count), but one thing remains certain – the Divine holds you! Your faith continues to encourage many. Today, I dedicate this post to you, Euni.

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